I've lost my stand and my strength in life.

Who am I now ?

I could feel your smell in the wind. If we were okay, I'll be happily in your arms now.
but ..................

Don't you ever feel like you miss me?

Why is it that when I'm sad, you don't even feel sorry for me? And perhaps you even kinda felt happier.

I see your initiative. Happier without me ? I guess so, though I feel like crying thinking about it again.

To avoid or overlook is plainly trying to tell me that you can't care less and it's fucking rude.
Please stop wrecking what I'm trying to protect, my heart, our love.
Why is it that you have to avoid topics i asked regarding our r/s?

Can you show some closeness to me in our hearts ? Can you respond to my feelings and needs ? You know what I want, why cannot you give me an answer to end my misery?

My whole body's aching. stomach, legs, head, all for the reason I don't know why. I don't know what I'm doing to myself, torturing myself like that. I don't know what you've done to me, to make me so weak like that. I just feel like lying there and let the virus take its toll.


(I AM MISSING YOU)

YES!!

YOU.
you heard me?

I will love only you
for the rest of my existence

I hate myself.
Why can't I control my temper/emotion?

I'm feeling so pissed off with I don't know what. I guess I need to attend anger management class already. But the problem is I don't know what I am angry about!

I'm feeling so mood less and I'm like a land mine that might just explode if you're not careful. I don't want to be like that, レベッカ can you please calm down? Omg. I think I'm going to go crazy soon.

I don't know whether if it's because of him, maybe, maybe not. I don't know is it because I'm unsure of my exact date of exam therefore I can't decide when to book the air tickets. So many things are clouding my mind right now. Maybe it's also because I can't get to read Breaking Dawn at the moment. Or probably because I feel sorry for Jacob Black's ending in Eclipse.

I'm feeling confused right now. Maybe it's because of him, or Edward. Okay, Edward doesn't link in here. But....
never mind. This is such a ridiculous post.


New Moon-03.12.09
Eclipse-30.06.10 (tentatively)

It's very simple actually
But yet, I can't decide.

(Today's posting will be in French)

Je vous aime pour une éternité

J'ai fini la lecture Eclipse et je pense que j'avais coulé profondément dans leur monde . Je ne peux pas oublier mon Edward Cullen et Jacob Black. Comme l'histoire est dans la perception de Guerres, subconciously que je sens comme je la suis.
Moi aussi, tomber en amour avec Edward et Jacob.

Le soupir, je fantasme alot sur les vampires.

C'est une poste courte aujourd'hui et je suis fini. Bien, c'est surtout me fulminant à ne peut pas habiter en un monde fictif.

Enfin, je veux apprendre vraiment du français. Son une langue stupéfiante et belle. Mais je veux apprendre aussi des Japonais ! Je ne peux pas décider. LOL

Nevermind, je devrais contrarier de mon permis de conduite premièrement avant que je commence à ajouter ces option de langue à ma liste. J'ai besoin de l'argent pour ma leçon pratique. = (

Jusqu'à la prochaine fois. Au revoir...


je vous manque

I'd love a happy ending.

Perfection. Isn't it?

Who would you choose?

Edward or Jacob??

I'd choose Edward. Even when he said he don't want me, might not be together again in future, I'd still wait for him and love only him.

ps: that's why Bella and Edward got back tgt at the end of the day. *envy*

Only a vampire can love you forever

You're my Edward Cullen
I'm so in love with you

I was reading real slowly in new moon, its like I'm only in about one quarter of the book, when I read the part where Edward broke up with Bella. I was reminded of him and uncontrollably my tears came falling down.




Enough of twilight at the moment, I wan to bring in a new fictional character Transformer. Hahaha, I know its kind of a boyish thing but I find it real cool and Megan Fox is just so damn hot.

I watched Transformer Revenge of the Fallen last night premier as I really couldn't wait no longer for its official screening today. Haha.

Well, I got free Transformer stickers when I bought the tickets. Its really damn exciting at hilarious at some point. Really nice to watch, you should go catch it mann!!


I've embedded the trailer for twilight new moon. I hope to finish the book quickly now as the trailer really tempt me so much.

You're better than drugs, I'm addicted for life

The greatest pain that comes from love is
loving someone you can never have.

I'm currently so addicted to Twilight. Hahaha, I'm still reading New Moon and I can't wait for the Twilight Saga movie to be screened.

I did my pedicure that day because its only 10 bucks. haha.

And...
I finally bought the 10 in 1 hair styling set. Haha, I spent quite alot this week. Lol.

Look at this.
Lamborghini!! 3 at a time. Beautiful... I think the black one is the nicest..

This is taken at Taka, I saw the transformer performing on stage. So cute mann..

Baby, you're all I think about every night.

I have so many things to write, but just too lazy to really type out. haha. give me time to see my mood to blog. =]]