I've lost my stand and my strength in life.

Who am I now ?

I could feel your smell in the wind. If we were okay, I'll be happily in your arms now.
but ..................

Don't you ever feel like you miss me?

Why is it that when I'm sad, you don't even feel sorry for me? And perhaps you even kinda felt happier.

I see your initiative. Happier without me ? I guess so, though I feel like crying thinking about it again.

To avoid or overlook is plainly trying to tell me that you can't care less and it's fucking rude.
Please stop wrecking what I'm trying to protect, my heart, our love.
Why is it that you have to avoid topics i asked regarding our r/s?

Can you show some closeness to me in our hearts ? Can you respond to my feelings and needs ? You know what I want, why cannot you give me an answer to end my misery?

My whole body's aching. stomach, legs, head, all for the reason I don't know why. I don't know what I'm doing to myself, torturing myself like that. I don't know what you've done to me, to make me so weak like that. I just feel like lying there and let the virus take its toll.


(I AM MISSING YOU)

YES!!

YOU.
you heard me?