Insomniac

Why do I tire of counting sheep?

New moon is finally showing, omg. I love both Edward and Jacob. I can watch the whole movie over again and again.

Sometimes is it just coincidental or fated?

I remember when I was reading the book New Moon, he left me the way Edward left Bella, that why I felt so connected to Bella in New Moon. Because I can feel the pain and suffering she is feeling as well. Now that New Moon is resurfacing to me again, i.e the movie, I can feel the pain again.

The same thing is happening to me all over again. The same girl, the same month, the same lies, the same hurt. =/

好人,坏人

I'll say I hate you now.
But I know I can never fool myself

I've been having mixed feelings recently. I don't know how to explain it, it's so complicated that sometimes I don't even really know what I really want. Reality world is so cruel, people are so scheming and cunning. Sigh. Sometimes, I wished I could go back to when I was young and everything were just as simple as how I love you.

When I think back to everything that had happened from day one to now, I really hate you, no, your actions. The way you handle us, the way you treated us, the lies you gave.

Deep down inside, I know I'll always have love for you. I thought you could set me free, told me truth, that I wasn't the girl for you, yet time and again you made me hopeful, I trusted you so. Still, I didn't have any clue, my heart just depended on you. Now that you left me alone, even though I knew the truth, I'm the only one in pain, will you please take it all away?

my dear, I can't bear to see you loving another girl.

Btw, should I get an iPhone 3GS? Hmm..

Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget.
It was a hard line to walk

It didn't feel like the pain had weaken over time,
rather that I'd grown strong enough to bear it.

The depth of life will dim, the temptation to live for you. I heard him, I had no will to fight. It was so clear, so much more defined than any memory, my subconsciousness had stored him in flawless detail, saving him for this final moment.

Will you appear if my adrenaline increase as well?

Above and beyond

And yet, to say the truth,
reason and love keep little company together nowadays. -William Shakespeare

A really chio X'mas tree

I've not been updating for centuries mann. Well, life is pretty much mundane when school reopen as everyday is just the same. Yayness for the new semester as I love the timetable to bits! I have more time for my afternoon nap.

Anyway, I went for a career fair this morning and got so many freebies (souvenirs) from all the different career booth. It was also really exciting and fun with frens around. After touring the exhibit, we went to the canteen for our brunch. What upsetting is the long delay of the bus back, made me stand under the scorching sun for almost an hour, oh mannn.

Exams are around the corner again, and Santa is coming to visit town soon! I can't wait for joyful Christmas to come.

Some pictures of the souvenirs from the fair and some snacks my uncle brought back from Japan. Ohmyy, the snacks are wrapped in really cute wrappers. I am yearning for Japan now as well! XOXO

I want to travel, travel, travel to lots of different places, SWEET.

Really cute snacks right.

They are actually nuts.
The back view Another snack which is like a muffin that taste like vanilla

I wanted to make it a closer view, but my lousy HP camera.... Haiz

The souvenirs from career fair

From Air Force, specifically sign on RSAF so as to get the keychain in this goodie bag, only to realised my bag so suay don't have the keychain. =.=

Only have these badges, which is not really useful at all. I swear the keychain is really cool, and Grace got it. Arrgh.

The correction tape is so unique, I woundn't bear to use it... TCC cookies, wrapped so nicely.

Not forgetting my beloved Xiuwen's birthday, it was weeks ago, only uploaded it today. LOL

Happy 20th birthday babe.

I uploaded it cuz it looks really tempting to eat again. HAHAHA

Promises can be made empty

I found myself waking at this time, eyes teary. I didn't realised one can actually cry while in sleep. Everything will be fine if i just dun pick up his call. The feelings will fade in time. Why am i so useless? I'm so miserable, i wan to wake up. I'm in agony, no matter where i am or wad i do, i miss him so much. I'm afraid i won't wake up. I don't know what to do. I'm so confuse . I'm sorry. I thought i can do it, but i can't. I can't tell right from wrong. I'm so useless. I failed everyone and wasted time.

F1 rocks Singapore!!!

Only remembering that he loved me,
that he wanted me, that I was his.

Day 2,

Formula BMW qualifying






Day 2, Asto Martin qualifying



Day 2, F1 practice n qualifying









Lewis Hamilton got 1st in the qualifying!!! yeah!!!




Day 3, BMW race final




Day 3, Aston Martin race final



Day 3, Porsche race final






Day 3, F1 race final









Final few laps, and winner is......




Lewis Hamilton!!!

Damn cute lahs..

The pictures I uploaded it in fb.. Lazy to upload to blogger again.. Haha.

Damn shag after the 3-days event but ot was great fun and good experience..

Haha. Shall update again.

Nights!!!

Unwholesomely gloomy ( EDITTED )

I'm in the Twilight of my life,

fortune slowly dwindling away

The precarious fate held ceaselessly ahead of me, I wonder when this period of dismal will end. The recent events had me being chagrin deeply. I had no idea on how and what I could possibly do to change anything at all. It is beyond my control. I don't know when my surly sky will turn sunny again. Am I curmudgeons at all? I do not have a very good temper, I know that. But.. I doubt that I'm a difficult person to be with.. Right? I believed it's still tolerable and not that seriously bad.

I had been having weird dreams recently, nightmares that were etched in my mind even when I was awake. In mid-day, parts of it just came flashing past my mind. I wonder whether if it was a bad sign.
I dreamt of my Edward (if you get what I really mean), things happened that were not even close to reality. Yet again, seemed real. I could hardly distinguish the dream from my world to the outside world.

I was feeling so scared and helpless in my dream, he left me alone to fend for myself in an unknown area filled with darkness. Promises were broken, tears were shed. He never showed up for me again. I gone to places that I had never been before, saw people whom I never met before. It was so weird, but then again the dream seemed so real, I returned to the similar dream probably most of the other nights. Only that the situation changes every now and then. The intention is mutual.

Perhaps I am having much troubles right now, mostly circumstances that are beyond my control. That is why my mind is speculating so much over it, subconsciously it is trying to find a way out, to the root of the problem. Come what may, I'm irrefutably lost at the will of another. I guess I can only wait and pray for things to turn for the better, in times to come.. ( I hope.. )


I want to read Breaking dawn. My patience is running low, I can't wait any longer already!!!

P/S. I spotted this clip in Youtube acting out New Moon. It's damn hilarious and obviously for your info it's totally not even close to the story at all. It's just the funny version and just for laugh. HAHA, it's really cute.

I've embedded the twilight version and new moon version. They have so much more other different movie which you can really watch at how creative they are.

This is twilight.



This is New Moon.

I wan to have a Baby too.

It will be a good way to die,
in the place of someone else,
someone I loved

Look at this video of a really adorable baby. Aww.. Makes me wanna have one too... They really brighten up your day! I remember there was once I was sitting on the train where a little boy sat beside me, I think he is most probably 4 or 5 years old. he was playing with his toy on his hand, then he just talked to me randomly. He was smiling and chatting away, I don't know why at the moment when I see him smile, I feel really happy too. They are just so innocently adorable.

But, I believe giving birth is not a really pleasant experience to go through. I shudder at the thought of it mannn. The whole process from being pregnant to actual giving birth. OMG, talking about having labour, I can't imagine how painful it's gonna be. Eww, just thinking of it makes me have goosebumps already. LOL, nevermind, let's stop here.